Monday, March 03, 2014


Last night we had another winter storm blow through the area dropping almost 2 inches of sleet.  Today school was canceled as a result of the icy roads.  I took today to turn off the TV and actually relax by following my advice from yesterday - taking a day of rest.  And that's exactly what I did.  I read a couple of chapters in my book, dozed a little in the late morning, crocheted a bit, and  did some yoga.  I promised myself that I wasn't going to do anything that felt like work (as they said in the piece I linked yesterday).  It was a nice day and I feel like I recuperated from the weekend.

School has already been canceled for tomorrow.  I'm waiting for my friend and PhD advisor to arrive tomorrow.  He's supposed to be giving a talk at school on Wednesday.  So, I'll get up and straighten the house while I wait for his arrival.  However, the theme for tomorrow will also be to take the day off from work.  I feel like these two days have been given to me for a reason.


Sunday, March 02, 2014

A Day of Rest...

A couple of months ago I made the decision that I was going to take Sunday off from having to get into the car and drive around to do errands or meet friends for movies, dinner, etc.  I wanted it to just be a day to myself.  What I find I've been doing though is working a lot on Sunday at the house.  Things like laundry, ironing, vacuuming, etc. have taken up my Sunday instead of going out.  I'm not finding this relaxing at all. 

This morning I was reading this article on Reclaiming a Day of Rest and found it to be exactly what I needed to hear.  If I'm going to say that "I Matter" and if I'm going to try to improve my health, I must be able to find this time in order to actually relax and recuperate.  I've decided that I'm no longer going to work on Sunday, and will only do things that I find relaxing and enjoyable.  I will not do anything that seems like work.

What about you?  Do you take a day of rest?

Saturday, March 01, 2014

I matter...

It's been a long time between posts, I know, and I'm sorry.  I've been feeling really tired since the end of last summer, but I didn't have time to go to the doctor to have things checked.  As I've said before, my work schedule is crazy busy with teaching 5 classes, doing all of the lab coordinator duties, plus trying to get my research done.  I am one person trying to do the jobs of many.  I was also working out often doing the Couch to 5K running series and was on week 4 near the end of the summer.  So I just figured that being tired was due to all of the things I was doing.  Until about 2 weeks ago.

I got to the point where I thought I was just going to fall over because I was so tired.  I was getting out of breath just walking the 1/4 mile in to my office from the parking lot - and it's a flat walk with no hills.  I also started to feel dizzy and off balance.  In fact, one morning when I was putting Honor's leash on, I bent over to do so and my head fell into the wall.  If the wall hadn't been there I would have tumbled head over heels.  For 2 days I fought with my balance, and that scared me - a LOT!

So I saw the doctor and told her about my symptoms.  She was a bit condescending in her reaction to my issues - no doubt because she saw me as this obese woman and it's no wonder I'm out of breath walking.  She didn't really seem to take me seriously.  But I told her I'd had a history of anemia and that I'd like to have blood drawn to have my iron levels checked.  She did it but I feel like I pressured her into it.

Results came back 4 days ago...normal iron levels are between 35-55mg/l....mine was 8mg/l!!  Hemoglobin should be between 15-55%...mine was 2%!!  It's no wonder I'm exhausted.  My blood can't carry enough oxygen to supply my body with what it needs.  The doctor called yesterday (3 days AFTER the results were posted) to tell me I had low iron (DUH) and that I need an iron transfusion.  I'm sure it will be a series of these like last time.  I also have very low vitamin D levels.

This got me to thinking though.  I really haven't been taking care of myself very well.  I don't always take my vitamins, I don't exercise regularly, and I don't have a healthy diet. I also try to help EVERYONE, especially my students who are taking advantage of my generosity this semester.  I'm resolving myself to fix these items starting immediately.  I've started taking my vitamins regularly now.  I am making an effort to do yoga every day.  I bought lots of fruits and veggies at the store today.  I resolve to eat better and take better care of myself.  I am no longer going to stay 1-2 hours after class is over to help my students.  I have things I need to do and I need to rest after teaching for 3 hours straight.  Long story short, changes need to be made...because, I matter just as much as everyone else!!


Monday, February 17, 2014

For a friend...

Came out so cute!

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

One Little Word - 2014

I don't do New Year's resolutions.  Instead I choose one little word that I ruminate on over the course of a year.  This year I chose the word Balance.  There are many things in my life in which I need to achieve more of a balanced state:  work vs. home, spending vs. saving, exercise vs. relaxation, TV on vs. TV off, etc.  I think it will be an excellent word for this year.


Monday, August 19, 2013

Fat Girl Still Running...

Yep, I'm still running.  Today I completed Week 3 run 1 of the C25K running plan.  I actually did it!!  This week we run for 90 seconds, walk for 90 seconds, run for 3 minutes, walk for 3 minutes, repeat.  I have no idea how, but I actually completed it.  I find that I'm not as winded at the end of the run as I was when I started.  I feel like I could go back to week 1 now and say "this is so easy" when, in fact, it was very, VERY difficult for me during week 1.  I hope my success continues.  My goal is the Color Run in November!

I bought a new pair of running Orthaheel.  They hurt my feet and are not doing well for the plantar fascitis.  Tonight I can barely walk because my heel hurts so bad.  Anyway, I think I'm going to have to revert back to my old running shoes with the inserts.   At least I could walk around somewhat pain-free after I got home.


Thursday, August 15, 2013

REAL American Hero...

Last night I had the opportunity to go see Dr. Buzz Aldrin speak about his new plan to go to Mars.  If you'll recall, Buzz Aldrin was the 2nd person to step on the moon, after Neil Armstrong.  The event was held at the Robinson Center in downtown Little Rock.  The house was packed!!  In fact, I think every seat was taken.  The announcer said it was the most attended talk ever given by the Clinton Center (a part of the Clinton Presidential Library, also in Little Rock).  I got so choked up listening to him talk about his trip to the moon and stepping out onto the lunar surface.  Seriously, nearly tears because I was so proud to be American.

One of the things that hit me the most was when he talked about our current space program, and how it was SUCH A MISTAKE to stop the shuttle program.  We, the builders of the space station, have absolutely no way on our own to GET to the space station!!  Instead, we pay the Russians $65 million dollars every time we need an astronaut to "hitch a ride" on one of their rockets!!  This is NOT how the leader of the free world stays ahead!  We, as a nation, are quickly losing any power we have had in the past, and the space program is but one example of this.

Afterwards I started thinking about the attendance numbers and how everyone clapped and stood for ovation after ovation, and I tried to think of an explanation.  And then it hit me.  We, well some of us, are desperately seeking a REAL American hero...someone we can look up to.  I think we're all getting tired of the Kim K's of the world (I personally have never watched that show and have given up all of the Real Housewives) because they do nothing to make us feel any better.  We all live very busy, demanding lives, and we need moments that are "feel good".  Seeing Buzz Aldrin, this man who took a chance and went TO THE MOON is just such that type of hero we're trying to find today.

Last night after I got home I took Honor out to go potty before bedtime.  I looked up into the beautiful clear sky and saw the moon...and I thought to myself that Buzz Aldrin can actually point to the moon and say "I've been there".  I am so envious!  And so proud!