Sunday, October 02, 2011

I just don't understand...

Life in Connecticut is not what I expected. Even though I'm making more money ($55K vs. $15K), so much is being taken out in taxes and to pay rent and utilities, that I am living poorer than I have lived before. It cost me so much to move here, expenses that were not reimbursed by the university. If my budget continues the way it is right now (which accounts for absolutely nothing fun) then I will have to get a second job in January to be able to pay student loans because I will have $18/month after bills to buy groceries and gas for the car. Yes, seriously.

I feel like I'm dying inside, one paycheck at a time. I hate the house I am living in. I rarely find joyous moments since moving here. I thought getting a PhD was supposed to improve your life. I feel it's been my ruin. Will I ever be able to do the things I love again?